"You can open eyes."
My Shu however open an eyelid, picked up gusset wipe wipe a forehead, just discover that the sweat has already wet gusset, wet very big one.I don't live a ground of breather and recover endocentric dismay, just take place of the whole I unexpectedly could not recalled, "quiet Hui teacher, what did I just say?"
She but smile language not, the Yang hand is that Buddha Maitreya, "your lo."
Fluently she points but hopes to go, just see fiercely very the Buddha Maitreya no longer reply at, remain is that Ci eyebrow kind eyes, pleased Ying Ying dynasty I smile of Buddha Maitreya.
"Meeting why so?"I gradually recovered the scare in the heart and made a noise to ask a way.
"Heart evil to."Her hand keeps fondling beads, the facial expression is particularly leisurely, " remembers three year agos, emperor once step go into here, said with you equally a words, 'it why thus fierce very', with you similar, be the same as an evil heart to."
"What is the heart evil?"
"Hate to read, greedy thought, wildly read, keep to read to make you enchant the man's natural character of doing the person, you have desire, greed, but your heart deep place but is struggling an antinomy.You are frightened, confuse, panic.Twos mutually scold, so caused your current heart evil."She a needle see blood ground said out the viewpoint of my heart, my boxing held more tightly, the cold sweat was gradually leaked out by forehead.
"How untie heart evil?"
"Abandon heart in of miscellaneous read, let go of old grudge, don't confuse panic again, just can return to real oneself like this."
"Let go of old grudge?"I sneer at 1 and say what it is easy, how can say to put and then let go of?"Impossibly, absolutely impossible."
She naturally sighed a , silent long time, "can the benefactor have the matter to once do to make oneself regret up to now?"
She brings up "penitence" two words, in my brain in a short instant the Shan appear a Qi star to keep one act act that I catch glowworm together company and take a sad voice point to nod, "have, I considers as his best friend, because he can always stir me happy, stir me to smile, more apprehensibility I.I unconditionally gave he believe, but he requite my but is a betrayal, he harmed my younger sister.So I hated him, I chose to put the blame him.He finally died, died in my in front, that hated for an instant vanish, replace of but is regret.The matter arrives at present I still can not release a bosom, from now on no one calls me any further'wench'."
"Do you still have the person to hate at present?"
"Have."I am gloomy to hang a head, grip into the hand of boxing slowly flabby but next, " he is the person whom I love most, but harm me the deepest.I not apprehensibility, since he loves me, why want to make use of me to attain his purpose.He knows perfectly wells my body of way not good, want also push away I, it make my kid have a miscarriage, does he go together with to say to love me like this?Take love as is hurting me, make use of me, does this calculate love?"
"That how do you want to revenge?"
"He once says, as long as I like, mowed section of country to play joy to me.This is the his words, have to cash, be not?I like this river's mountain now, I wanted to play this section of country."I take the smiling face of light Feng to say this sentence.
"Even if you had fun this section of country to have no, after?Revenge for the kid?You is the ability happy?"Her hand suddenly fists my hands, very warm, almost will I that icy cold heart is warm hot."Does the madam know?You at speak of this some kind of words of, the vision is confusing, complicated, antinomy, poverty the Ni know your heart also same at flounder.Poverty Ni mean to say, there is previous penitence, should absorb precept, don't should make a same mistake again.Pain and sufferings of the human life biggest nothing is better than loves each other at 2 of person the unexpectedly mutual old grudge make use of, this turns and twists complicated road do you really want that using is bloody to solve?Will that have the love of the sea change ever strangled?After strangling, you will are that sort such as those early years and regret, self-reproach, this is you desirable of?Harmed others, also harmed oneself at the same time?"
The lips that foolishly hopes her once 1 match, my hands again clench fist, "not, he can not forgive.Originally I can be a mother, just he, so I for life barren, lost the opportunity of doing the mother forever."
She hears here and contains sad Min in the vision and holds my hand and uses several cents, energy, "why on earth cover up old grudge every moment and in mind, why not try to forgive?Just can return to original oneself so, just can set free like this."
"I can not find to lend to forgive."I lightly smiled a , that voice even I all feel perplexed by myself, is this to smile?
"The madam can know, the war signal rises everywhere at present, Qi and Yu the situation of two countries is rigorous, the power is like water fire, and the war is imminent.But madam regardless of Qi country the crisis at this time, remain ruin for emperor making disorder, desire its section of country.Do you know to will result in much threat so?Qi country common people, He Gu, , the madam should know to what is meant by grand love."
Suddenly one Zheng, I from Pu regiment up play to sit but rise, "quiet Hui teacher the speech weighed, Fu Ya He De can unexpectedly will overturn a Qi country.The emperor is an astute lord nowadays, he not only cleverness and have much of ability, be not?Is every the worthy thing is to him, he will disregard to make use of, still can the sorrow not win a Yu country?"
"The madam seems to have very deep prejudice to the emperor."
Lightly hoped her one eye, finally produced some alerts, "the quiet Hui teacher is the person of a house, Tu believe to talk not and more, I talk with you today of these you can't spread indiscriminately everywhere of, rightness?"I flicked to flick to be stained with just some little the dress Mei of dust, again whole the whole dress Jin, looking at her sincere of vision, a heart that hangs to mourn also gradually put down and turned round a dynasty get empty clear hall outside but go.
"Poverty Ni expectation the madam is free again come to get empty a clear hall to sit of a while, poverty the Ni wanted to say with you emperor,http://feeds.feedburner.com/CUZM, again for you get rid of heart is evil."
Hear after death spread her voice, my step didn't grind to a stop and remained several steps forward but go, the skirt Cape took to have a dark dust of a burst of of flavor, some sting nose.If I is not understand either by myself, why will say to the person whom a first time meet so more to be concealed to heart, because she that smiling of sincerity at lead me to she says of ……but speak, I of in the mind really lead a lot, no longer such as that sort once was perplexed, dismay.
The flower flies willow catkins remnants, Xiao Xiang in former days the breeze settle a dew.
The setting sun reflects the breeze spread, red and red dye Qiong to find cloud.
Being disconsolate to add to the utmost don't, hate to grow an unique Xian dust with night.
Left an empty clear hall with heavy mood, I at the east is inside the temple of visit a gallery on slowly but go, slowly bum.Didn't know to round as well how much curved, but still linger at east visiting of temple gallery on doing not know should seem to be over there what should one do have already forgotten to return to Zhao Feng the road of the temple for an instant.Suddenly my step deadlock lives, brain one blank, settle settle ground stare at to visit a gallery side of scarlet stone pillar.Just quiet Hui teacher a words seem to be deeply to plant into my brain and knock in my mind.
I can not help asking myself:If is true of had fun the section of country that the Qi bless to have no, I ability happy?
I don't know that I know I hate him and hated him to once cheat to me and hated him to make use of to me and hated he personally harmed my kid, so I wanted to make reprisals him.I know that this river's mountain is the most important thing in his heart, so I want to ruin his most important thing, positive as he ruining my most important thing.
For this half year, I have been aming developing my own influence, let oneself have enough ability to ascend the empress', just have more capitals to bless with the Qi to resist like this.But the quiet Hui teacher say I this for the sake of personal private interest but place a Qi country common people are regardless of.Yes, at present the warfare of the utmost urgency of Yu country and Qi country, at that time what I thought is to multiply by at this time disorderly situation, the better implantation is own influence, seizes an opportunity clearance dynasty in disadvantageous to me of big ministers.But I have never thought, but this is deluding a disorderly Qi country and push the common people of Qi country to water and scorching fire ground of.
I am true of be hoodwinked a double eye by the old grudge?When to rise "disaster water" that I have already become that to bring calamity to the country and the people in the middle of the historical records?
For the first time, I query to arise from F conduct and actions in this half year, really wrong?I, really do amiss?Not, I have no wrong, my kid damn?
"Madam ……" flower Xi hopes a foolish station at first of I, the small voice light language ground called me a , I gloomy time absolute being, discover oneself in nowadays to really rude in behavior, favour
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